This weekend was full of mindless eating and not a lot of moving. And it showed on the scale as I went up 2 lbs.
The other night I posted that I wanted to let go and eat like crazy. Well I didn't. I allowed myself a little wiggle room but not much. I allowed myself to have an ice cream sundae cone and then called it a night.
Getting ready to go for a quick walk with my boys...
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Friday, July 26, 2013
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Ready To Move On...
My D&C was done last Friday and it was a horrible experience. My ob/gyn prescribed Misoprostol for me to take the night before to help start things. I wish he hadn't because honestly, there was so much blood I was freaked out. And most of it happened at the hospital. As if that wasn't enough, they couldn't find my labs and it just seemed like one thing after another. Once I was in my pre-op room with my Mommy (yes, even though I am 30 now, I still need my Mommy!) I was able to clean up and relax. The surgery didn't take long... about a half hour and I woke up coughing and crying. I didn't know they were going to use a breathing tube. But I felt a LOT better about a LOT of things. I still struggle emotionally, dealing with the grief and loss of my baby... but I hold fast to the hope that I will be blessed again.
While I wait for my turn, I am trying to start over. I have rejoined Lose It instead of Weight Watchers. It's free and it works, when you follow it. I'm trying to cut the soda down (I was drinking WAY too much and eating WAY too much following my miscarriage) and start drinking more water. My bf and I have been eating a LOT of salads lately... So yum! Just waiting for the veggies to come up!
As for the exercise, I have really been thinking about Zumba again. There's a class at my church/work on Thursdays and Tuesdays... and it's only $10 a week... If I'm not paying $18 a month for WW... I think I might be able to swing it. Gotta think about it a little more.
So I'm keeping my chin up and I'm keeping the faith. Better things are coming.... I can feel it.
While I wait for my turn, I am trying to start over. I have rejoined Lose It instead of Weight Watchers. It's free and it works, when you follow it. I'm trying to cut the soda down (I was drinking WAY too much and eating WAY too much following my miscarriage) and start drinking more water. My bf and I have been eating a LOT of salads lately... So yum! Just waiting for the veggies to come up!
As for the exercise, I have really been thinking about Zumba again. There's a class at my church/work on Thursdays and Tuesdays... and it's only $10 a week... If I'm not paying $18 a month for WW... I think I might be able to swing it. Gotta think about it a little more.
So I'm keeping my chin up and I'm keeping the faith. Better things are coming.... I can feel it.
Sunday, July 14, 2013
It's a Wild World...
It's been a while since I've last posted anything.
Okay it's been a LONG time. But I have a valid excuse. Life. Life gets in the way of everything sometimes, doesn't it?
It's been a crazy couple months.
I celebrated my 30th Birthday the end of last month. It was a blast, despite that it down poured, and I was surrounded by love. Mike (the bf) made it the BEST birthday ever and threw me a party the Saturday after. We bbq'd and had family over. It was amazing.
Shortly after that I found out that I was pregnant. That's right. Pregnant. According to my calculations we were 8-10 weeks along. Three days later we went for our first ultrasound and found out that our peanut had no heartbeat. Talk about devastating.
I was out of work most of last week getting blood work and seeing doctors and confirming the miscarriage and mostly just laying on the couch snuggled with my puppy and crying. Tomorrow I have to go to the ob/gyn and schedule a D&C.
Medically, my peanut had no heartbeat... and medically, nothing formed inside the sac but to me it was very real. After spending my adult hood believing I was unable to get pregnant because of my size (with no medical testing to prove otherwise) I now know that I can get pregnant. And this has caused a LOT of baby talk between me and the bf. We want children.
For 7 weeks (That's where the doctor found me to be...) I got to be a little peanut's momma. And while there was nothing I could have done to change the outcome of this pregnancy, I am hopeful that the next one will be successful. God is seeing me through this and I am surrounded by tons of love and support. 80-90% of pregnancies conceived after a miscarriage are successful. Despite my size and my hypertension, I am otherwise healthy. There's no reason I shouldn't be able to carry successfully and I am a firm believer that it's my time.
For now, I must rest and get ready for this surgery next week. I know when the time comes I will feel hard about it and be sad, but it's all part of the grieving process.
As for my weight loss... I nixed the weight watcher's account because why pay $20 a month when I'm not using it? I am going back to Lose It (a free program!) and starting to wear fitbit.
Funny how life seems to get in the way!
Okay it's been a LONG time. But I have a valid excuse. Life. Life gets in the way of everything sometimes, doesn't it?
It's been a crazy couple months.
I celebrated my 30th Birthday the end of last month. It was a blast, despite that it down poured, and I was surrounded by love. Mike (the bf) made it the BEST birthday ever and threw me a party the Saturday after. We bbq'd and had family over. It was amazing.
Shortly after that I found out that I was pregnant. That's right. Pregnant. According to my calculations we were 8-10 weeks along. Three days later we went for our first ultrasound and found out that our peanut had no heartbeat. Talk about devastating.
I was out of work most of last week getting blood work and seeing doctors and confirming the miscarriage and mostly just laying on the couch snuggled with my puppy and crying. Tomorrow I have to go to the ob/gyn and schedule a D&C.
Medically, my peanut had no heartbeat... and medically, nothing formed inside the sac but to me it was very real. After spending my adult hood believing I was unable to get pregnant because of my size (with no medical testing to prove otherwise) I now know that I can get pregnant. And this has caused a LOT of baby talk between me and the bf. We want children.
For 7 weeks (That's where the doctor found me to be...) I got to be a little peanut's momma. And while there was nothing I could have done to change the outcome of this pregnancy, I am hopeful that the next one will be successful. God is seeing me through this and I am surrounded by tons of love and support. 80-90% of pregnancies conceived after a miscarriage are successful. Despite my size and my hypertension, I am otherwise healthy. There's no reason I shouldn't be able to carry successfully and I am a firm believer that it's my time.
For now, I must rest and get ready for this surgery next week. I know when the time comes I will feel hard about it and be sad, but it's all part of the grieving process.
As for my weight loss... I nixed the weight watcher's account because why pay $20 a month when I'm not using it? I am going back to Lose It (a free program!) and starting to wear fitbit.
Funny how life seems to get in the way!
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Just a quickie update...
Been busy this weekend. Yesterday we spent all day outside (After a couple hours running around getting everything in order) putting up the puppy fence. It's looking fab and I'm so excited to get the rest of it up! We had to drive an hour away to return the posts as they didn't fit and get new ones but on the way home we stopped at McDonald's. Not a great choice but we didn't go crazy. I had a southern style chicken sandwich (Which point wise wasn't too bad) but the M&M McFlurry KILLED me... the one I had was 22 points! OY! But I had to sit in the truck with puppy for an hour while Mike got everything worked out so he was pretty hot and cranky... Puppy that is. We wanted to get him a little vanilla ice cream (The jerks screwed up the order and gave us a hot fudge sundae instead...) but he LOVED it... he was so cute with it all in his fur. My heart is so full of love!
Then Mike and I worked on the fence and getting holes dug and pruning bushes and gardening. I'm a little sore but it's good... Oh and I took Snickers for a mile long walk first thing in the morning because well... I was cramping SUPER hard and miserable. It kind of helped. So yesterday alone I got close to 12,000 steps! :-)
Today won't be much good because I have to sit in a class and church... but hopefully when I get out I can take Puppy for a NICE LONG WALK! It's supposed to be awesome today too! Loving the sunshine!
Enjoy the day!
Been busy this weekend. Yesterday we spent all day outside (After a couple hours running around getting everything in order) putting up the puppy fence. It's looking fab and I'm so excited to get the rest of it up! We had to drive an hour away to return the posts as they didn't fit and get new ones but on the way home we stopped at McDonald's. Not a great choice but we didn't go crazy. I had a southern style chicken sandwich (Which point wise wasn't too bad) but the M&M McFlurry KILLED me... the one I had was 22 points! OY! But I had to sit in the truck with puppy for an hour while Mike got everything worked out so he was pretty hot and cranky... Puppy that is. We wanted to get him a little vanilla ice cream (The jerks screwed up the order and gave us a hot fudge sundae instead...) but he LOVED it... he was so cute with it all in his fur. My heart is so full of love!
Then Mike and I worked on the fence and getting holes dug and pruning bushes and gardening. I'm a little sore but it's good... Oh and I took Snickers for a mile long walk first thing in the morning because well... I was cramping SUPER hard and miserable. It kind of helped. So yesterday alone I got close to 12,000 steps! :-)
Today won't be much good because I have to sit in a class and church... but hopefully when I get out I can take Puppy for a NICE LONG WALK! It's supposed to be awesome today too! Loving the sunshine!
Enjoy the day!
Monday, April 22, 2013
... So it's been a while since I've written. Mostly I've just felt like I've had nothing to say. I get tired of saying the same things... I can't lose weight... I'm not strong enough... I don't have enough money... Do you HEAR the whining on those sentences? Ugh.
... I had my visit with the doctor last week and she said that I'd lost 7lbs in the past year. Phew! I was afraid I'd gained but I'll take what I can get. It kind of cracked me up because her scale said I was less than what mine said. I'm not entirely sure which one is right... maybe neither!
... I am rejoining weight watchers and starting on friday. Why not start today, you ask? Because... I need some time to finish my menus and I wanted to pick a day that I will be responsible for. Weighing in on friday will give me time to get over the weekends and bounce back if I need to. Those seem to be the most trouble.
... I am being proactive about the weight watcher's thing. My work has a menu we follow weekly... so I wrote them all out and am figuring out points for everything so that I know that one cup of this is 4 points and half a cup of that is 5. I am really hoping that will help me out.
... The end of this month... wait... it IS the end of the month... my boyfriend and I are putting up a fence in the front yard for our fur-baby to run around and get his exercise. It'll be work putting it in and hopefully we will be inspired to move with him. Not only that but we are going to start getting the pool in shape for the summer. I am so excited!
... Not only are all these wonderful amazing things going on... but the boyfriend asked me if I wanted to take a week-long trip to Florida to meet his dad this December! HECK YES! So that will be motivation for me. I want to see how much I can lose before the start of December! It will be awesome!
... Well there's an update for y'all. I'm still here. I'm still kicking and working on it. I'll get there. :)
... I had my visit with the doctor last week and she said that I'd lost 7lbs in the past year. Phew! I was afraid I'd gained but I'll take what I can get. It kind of cracked me up because her scale said I was less than what mine said. I'm not entirely sure which one is right... maybe neither!
... I am rejoining weight watchers and starting on friday. Why not start today, you ask? Because... I need some time to finish my menus and I wanted to pick a day that I will be responsible for. Weighing in on friday will give me time to get over the weekends and bounce back if I need to. Those seem to be the most trouble.
... I am being proactive about the weight watcher's thing. My work has a menu we follow weekly... so I wrote them all out and am figuring out points for everything so that I know that one cup of this is 4 points and half a cup of that is 5. I am really hoping that will help me out.
... The end of this month... wait... it IS the end of the month... my boyfriend and I are putting up a fence in the front yard for our fur-baby to run around and get his exercise. It'll be work putting it in and hopefully we will be inspired to move with him. Not only that but we are going to start getting the pool in shape for the summer. I am so excited!
... Not only are all these wonderful amazing things going on... but the boyfriend asked me if I wanted to take a week-long trip to Florida to meet his dad this December! HECK YES! So that will be motivation for me. I want to see how much I can lose before the start of December! It will be awesome!
... Well there's an update for y'all. I'm still here. I'm still kicking and working on it. I'll get there. :)
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